It's thrown around a lot no matter where you are or where you go. "Just accept it", "don't get offended", "open your arms and just embrace it!"
That "C" word!
Change.
I'm usually all for change (when it has a purpose), but over the last few weeks I've been craving same. I felt like I just wanted things to stop so I could catch up. With packing up one house, being in temporary (albeit lovely) accommodations (more than 1) for 2 weeks, then moving and unpacking to a new house, setting up utilities, broadband, finding housemates to fill extra rooms, work projects up in the air (new ones coming in, old ones being pushed out, and cancellation and delays of life coaching programs), dealing with education providers that have been doing more billing than educating, and not to mention how crazy my health has been as a result of all this - I was screaming from the inside out - "Please. Just. STOP!"
But instead, I put on my brave face every morning and battled through.
So here's the reason for this reflection.
On the day I got my keys for the new house, one of my girlfriends came over to help me with some moving and unpacking. And we were, once in melting mode from the heat and humidity and fully accomplished (clocked out) for the night, chatting away and I explained how tired I'd been feeling with everything I had on. And she said to me then that she noticed a couple of weekends ago that I looked very out of sorts (we'd gone to Caloundra for the weekend) but then I'd looked much better at the end of the weekend. She also added she doesn't often notice changes in people's physical features (more so their moods/behaviours), so for her to have noticed a physical change in me was significant and made her feel a little worried about me.
This was totally unsurprising, I have been crazy busy with all of the things above, and then my mind has been busy worrying about getting them all done.
But my failing through it, was taking away my 'time-outs'. I'd let myself fall foul to breaking routine on morning meditation and becoming absent of my beach time which I know I need to reconnect to nature and inner self.
I'm not perfect, and I will never attest to be - even though I joke with friends about being a mystical unicorn (you know the one from the wife zone chart! Haha!). But seriously, I'm on my own journey, living my life with purpose, glad to have found what this is already, and to have been living it part way there for the last 15 years. My own journey, just like yours will come with challenges and life lessons to bring us closer to the pure goodness that we are, bring us closer and closer to a life of bliss, love, happiness and abundance.
This has been one of my lessons, and I'm patiently listening to the messages and making sure I take action. Taking action, this is one lesson in itself - I don't want for life to present this whole experience again with more "kappow" for me to do my learning. Because that's what happens, we repeat patterns until the learning is done, and every time we fail to learn we get a bigger more dramatic/painful message.
Why am I telling you?
Because I'm still learning, and I use all the skills that I have to help me grow in body, mind and spirit. And every time I learn life lessons, taking any relevant action to support the learning, I get closer to the essence of who I am, my energy and vibration gets higher making me better able to, more resilient to, handle challenges. But most importantly enjoy the life that I have whole heartedly!
My purpose is to help others grow, and doing this for myself makes me better able to do this for you.
It's the wonderful journey I am on, and I'm thankful for all the lessons I have learned and will learn. They all help me to be my best!
So go ahead and be yours! 🙂
Be your best,
Bhav xx
